I’ve known that I probably had PCOS sense I was 15. My step mom has it, and has been really supportive. I had this incapacitating fear of going to the gyno for years (had a really bad experience with my biological mom on my first ever visit), so I avoided it like the plague.
I went on birth control after that visit, and my step mom ended up taking me off of it because of the terrible mood swings I was having. I also had clinical depression at the time, and it got worse on the birth control.
Always had irregular periods, and my hair started thinning when I was 13. When I hit my twenties, I would menstruate for a month, then not have one for the rest of the year.
At one point I went two years without having one. I finally broke down in February of 2008 and went to the doctor. She told me she thought that I had PCOS. She did a pap and sent me for an ultrasound.
At the same time I started having terrible panic attacks, to the point where I would hyperventilate and pass out. This only happened when I went to the doctor. It took me three visits before I would let them touch me to do blood work.
I explained my condition to my gynecologist, and she promised to work with me and help me with my anxiety about going on birth control again (she wasn’t particularly happy with the idea of helping me have a baby until I was a bit healthier). On the day of my ultrasound, I had to take ativan to keep me calm. It made me really loopy. The doctor who did my ultrasound had no bedside manor at all.
I started to have another panic attack, and became very upset. He told me during the ultrasound that I did have PCOS and proceeded to degrade me for having a panic attack. I couldn’t make myself go back.
Sense then my hubby and I have moved to a new area, and last week I visited a new doctor. I have been menstruating for two and a half months, passing very large clots and find myself exhausted after doing the most menial tasks. I’ve been menstruating more days this year than not. The doctor I saw was sooo nice.
It was the first time I have ever been comfortable at a gynecologists visit. My hubby and I have been trying unsuccessfully to conceive for 3 years now. My new doctor put me on 1500mg of metformin to help with the bleeding, and I go for an ultrasound tomorrow, and a follow up appointment next week. I should be getting my blood work back tomorrow, though I have to say I’m not really sure what she tested for.
I wish I had been a bit more proactive so I would have known the right questions to ask. I really have no idea what to expect, but I am really excited about the prospect of getting healthier and hopefully at some point having a baby, God willing.
Thanks for reading!
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