I was just told I have PCOS. I guess I’m in denial.

I haven’t had my period in 5 months and went to the doc. They said I had all the signs and sent me for blood work and ultra sound. I went to find out what PCOS is and when I saw that most women end up with diabetes I started to cry. No one in my family had diabetes, just cancer and heart problems, that I know of. The woman doing my ultra sound also has PCOS and she was trying to keep me calm and tell me it is not as bad as it sounds.

But there is a part of me that would rather have cancer than this. She said that my ovaries are normal size, and about only 6 cysts. She told me that it was very likely that I have PCOS, but the blood work will tell me for sure. The doctor said that I have it but the only thing in my blood work that wasn’t normal was the hormones my insulin level is normal.

What she was worried about was my weight. I have kept gaining weight (15 lbs in 2 weeks) with no cause. Though I blame my Effexor for my weight gain. She said my weight, lack of periods, and hair on my chin were the classics signs. However, if feel its all the Effexor fault, except the hair because everyone in my family has that.

The doctor put me on Yaz B.C. The last B.C. I was one was the normal one and that was over 15 years ago. I was on it for less than a month and it gave me a green discharge. Sure I had PMS like a crazy person but I had my period every month (it wasn’t clockwork but it was never more than 2 weeks late), until my mom died. That is when my period just went missing.

I had some sort of PID an STD (from a rape) or a from a cyst the rupurted and never was caught. I don’t know. After that I was under so much stress, that a few times I wouldn’t have my period, but once I relaxed it was fine. Until I went on the Effexor. Whenever I tried to get off it I wouldn’t have my period. When I was under a lot of stress I would miss my period. Until the 5 month span.

So now I’m on Yaz, I have lost 8 lbs. (No diet change). No period yet. I feel that I don’t have PCOS but yet I do. I know this isn’t well written and it is basically me freaking out. Every time I think about my PCOS all I can think of is getting diabetes and having my life be over.

Well, that’s my story. Thanks for reading.

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