I feel like my story is very similar to most everyone else’s I’ve read here; however, I thought I write it out (maybe more for myself than anyone else).
I felt that even before I began trying to conceive there would be problems. When I thought about having children, there always seemed to be something dark (for lack of a better word) that hung in my brain over the thought.
So when my husband and I got married last January and immediately started trying, I was not surprised to have gone 10 months with no success. I KNEW something wasn’t right but was convinced not to see a doctor by everyone I talked to about my concerns. I always heard: “There is nothing wrong. You haven’t been trying long enough. You’re stressing yourself out and you’re impatient.”
I eventually did go see a doctor and was diagnosed with PCOS as well as a thyroid problem about a month ago. All of the sudden the heavy, irregular periods, the facial/body hair, the acne, and the infertility all made sense. I was happy to finally KNOW what was going on, but now I’m left trying to deal.
Sometimes I feel hopeless, aggravated, resentful and angry (which I usually end up feeling like a bad person for), impatient, down, worried, and every other negative feeling imaginable. But slowly (VERY slowly), I’m starting to learn to focus on what I have instead what I’m lacking. The longer I process my thoughts dealing with PCOS the more positive and optimistic I am.
I am happy to know that there are people who have succeeded in several different aspects of their life where PCOS is a concern. I hope that this all works out. I feel like I’m moving in the right direction, and everyone around me is learning to be more sensitive to my struggles.
Wish me luck!
Want to connect with me? My name is Jacky84 on the SoulCysters Message Board.