Well, I am 23 years old and I was diagnosed with PCOS about 3 years ago. I was having problems with my periods, well, as in having none and putting me on birth control just made me bleed constantly. I finally talked to the doctor and asked him if this is what I had and he said yes.

I left with my Fiance from the doctors office, climbed in the car, and started to cry and I cried for hours. I felt as if my dreams had been ripped away from me. All I have ever wanted in life was to be a wife and mother and although I have accomplished one, I sometimes feel as if I have lost the other.

I got married in August of 2007 and have been on a birth control that has been working for me until I started on Concerta for ADD. Since the birth control was only for regulation rather than contraception, I stopped taking it this past week because it was giving me extreme mood swings, I am already BiPolar so that doesn’t help the situation and it only stresses our relationship more. So we have decided to just discontinue the use of any contraception at all.

Although we are not actively seeking to get pregnant right now, we are not preventing it and if it happens it will be greatly embraced.

Before I started the birth control, I tried a natural progesterone and estrogen cream for Arbonne in an attempt to see if it would help my cycles. I felt like it really helped my moods and helped to level me out so to speak but didn’t feel like it had any effect on my cycles.

However, when I went off the cream, after 6 weeks, I got a positive ovulation test, twice in a row, and exactly 2 weeks later I started a period! So that if anything, gives me hope that my body is capable of doing what it was designed to do.

I am told that more than likely I will have to take Clomid for ovulation purposes but I have a lot of hope with that, my stepmom had to use it and my friend conceived on it earlier this year and delivered a son in October.

Sometimes I need a sounding board because like most of you I have extreme feelings of anger, and resentment, denial, not understanding why I have this, and why me. Just about everytime I hear someone is pregnant I cry, it hurts so bad sometimes, but I have to trust God in this, he ultimately has the decision and I also have to remember that its all in His time.

Thanks for looking.

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