Hey my name’s Erika. I was diagnosed with PCOS when I was twelve in the year 2001, but I had some of the symptoms starting when I was nine, particularily the hair in places where it shouldn’t be and the weight gain. From puberty on, I always weighed a little more than my classmates. When I was in the sixth grade, I was a size ten!

I started my period when I was eleven. I had horrible, heavy periods and the worst cramps you can imagine. I would get sick from the cramps. I also would skip periods every few months. I was diagnosed in 2001 at the age of twelve. Nobody really explained this condition to me. Basically everything that I know, I know from reading books about it. When I was diagnosed I was put on birth control pills and metformin.

My period became regular and predictable on them. My doctor said that being on them would take care of my hair problem. It didn’t. When I was eighteen my doctor had me try going off the pill to see if my period regulated itself. It didn’t. I was skipping periods again and I was 55 pounds thinner then.

I am now 23 and I’m at my heaviest. I’m a size eighteen womens and I am 4’11” tall. I’ve been overweight all through my teen years, I want my twenties to be different. I want to feel sexy. My love life up to now has been nonexistent. I think that maybe subconsciously I may have been avoiding the opposite sex because I feel insecure about my body, and because I dread trying to explain this condition to the opposite sex.

It’s not really even about my weight, it’s more about the fact that I have unwanted facial hair etc. Of course I want to be thinner but I wouldn’t feel too disappointed if a man didn’t want to date me, because I’m overweight because that shows that he is immature.

I hate my PCOS! I hate the hair that grows on my lip, chin, and other places. I hate the fact that I’m heavy and I’m forever going to have problems staying in the normal weight range. Due to the fact that I gain weight really easily and have a really hard time losing weight. I feel so depressed and I hate the fact that I might not be able to get pregnant and feel life grow inside of me. It just feels so unfair. It feels like one of the main things that makes being a woman special is the fact that we can give birth to children.

The reason why I probably won’t be able to get pregnant is because the only reason I have regualr periods is because I’m on the pill. I’m pretty sure the pill just makes you have your period but it doesn’t make you ovulate even when on the ‘blanks”. I’ll probably adopt when I want to have a baby. What also bothers me is the fact that even if I did get pregnant, someday when I want to have a baby, is the fact that a woman with PCOS has a higher risk of miscarriage.

Want to connect with me? My name is Spitfire23 on the SoulCysters Message Board.