I’m 23 and was told last year I have PCOS. Thing is, my dr never told me I was diagnosed when I was 17 and had some hormones checked. I found out when a free clinic got a hold of my medical records. I didn’t have insurance for a while, so I had to stop taking spironolactone and haven’t had a physical in a while.

I have a huge problem with hirsutism. I probably spend about 45 mins a day plucking the hairs out of my face, and I constantly and obsessively pick while I’m driving or sitting down. Because of the hair, my face gets red/irritated and HURTS from infected ingrown hairs. Some days, I just feel so gross. I stay inside and DREAD going out with friends. I feel I can just never look nice. And I feel manly.

I’ve always been overweight, but my family has been under extreme stress the past year or so, and I have gained 30 lbs in one year! I can’t get rid of it! I feel disgusting and know I am unhealthy, and am very concerned about diabetes. My mother, aunt, 2 uncles, grandfather, and a few more relatives ALL have diabetes…….am I next?

I finally got approved for health insurance, and I intend on taking full advantage of it. Hopefully I can get back on spironolactone, because it did wonders for my facial hair, and ask them about being tested for IR and diabetes. I’m very interested in metformin.

Well, that’s about me in a nutshell. I’ve been so unbelievably sad and depressed lately. I know my boyfriend is a wonderful man and loves me no matter what…but I feel so ugly and unsexy. I feel wrong in my own body. Looking in the mirror makes me cry 🙁

If there are women out there who feel just like I do, please feel free to message me! My family and friends have no clue what it feels like to hate yourself so much, it would be nice to have a little support and understanding 🙂

Want to connect with me? My name is Annakins on the SoulCysters Message Board.